How many people does it take to pull out a 8yr olds tooth?

Haven't wrote in awhile....been busy.  Wednesday I had dinner with Lisa Walters my old boss, she was in town from FL.  It was awesome seeing her and getting to catch up.  We had so much to talk about!  She always gives really good advice.  I miss her so much, I hope she moves back eventually.  Friday night I went with Donna to see Sue, and we had a nice talk.  Sue is doing ok, she lost Megan back in November but she is hanging in there.  I can't even imagine how she feels.  Saturday I met with my ex Chad, to talk and get some closure (I guess).  Well, in the morning I was totally fine and felt really strong, but when he got here and we started talking I just "fell".  I just told him that things weren't all just his fault, that we both made mistakes.  I said I still believed in him, and in us one day.  Basically at the end of the conversation he said that we had no future together, not now, or ever.  My response to him was ok, ok, ok, that's what I wanted to know.  He asks, are you ok? Me, yea I'm fine its ok really. (ha, if anyone knows girl language that really meant, no you piece of shit, I am not going to be ok! How dare you ask that?)  Then he asked again if I was going to be ok, and I was like ummm no, but you can leave now.  I broke down and had a horrible meltdown, balled my eyes out.  Texted Donna and called my mom.  They both made me feel a little better.  Later on, I found out that he went to Donna's work to tell Donna that he was worried about me and that she should go home and check on me...seriously? Did he really do that? He has NO RIGHT to ask Donna to come home to check on me, if he really cared he wouldn't have put me through 7 yrs of up and down, I want you, I don't want you, I love you, I don't love you......you don't get the right to care about me after all of that!  You are the one who made me this way.....get over yourself!  Sunday I stopped at half price books, signed malissa up for golds gym so she can work out with me, watched some tv, then went to the gym to work out...hurt like hell but felt good at the same time.  I'm gonna lose some weight!  Today was a long day at work, groomed 5 dogs!  Came home took a nice shower, ate some dinner, and then helped Jordan pull out her loose tooth.  This took was hanging on by a thread.....she asked me to help her, I pushed it and she yelped.  Then Papa told her he wanted to help, so he gets his flashlight out and is trying to do it, as Jordan's going no, no no....you scare me, you're gonna hurt me....so he pulls and she yelps and runs away.  Then I go sit behind her and he tries some more....he gets some dental floss around it, and pulls a little.  Jordan freaks out, screams, and says don't do this to me!  That was probably the funniest part.  Then Papa got all mad at her because she wouldn't let him just yank it out, he's like forget it, I'm done, go away...etc, yea kinda mean.  So then I keep encouraging her to wiggle it and pull it out.  Like 2 minutes after Papa gave up on her, she got it out! Yay!  Now it's time to watch some grey's on netflix, and cuddle with my Ollie boy!  He's been so cute lately, I've been slacking at posting pictures so I have a bunch below.

Isn't he just so handsome?

Is Hopefully on my Upward Spiral

It was a long year last year with tons of stress and heartache.  I can't say that I am completely better because you never are, however I am feeling a bit better.  I feel like getting out of the bed in the morning and I feel motivated more than I have been in months!  Tonight I went to Gold's Gym with my bff Anna and I joined up and we are going to workout multiple times a week together so that I can lose this weight....my weight loss goal is 20-25lbs.  I want to fit back in my size 6 jeans!  Right now I'm in a size 10 :(  However, I met the hottest guy tonight and he told me he was a sucker for girls in scrubs which totally made me more motivated to want to go and workout!  I can (hopefully) stare at him while working out and losing weight...win win!  On another note, I can't believe it is only 53 days until I leave for my cruise! Back in August of 2011 is when I booked it, and it felt like it was going to take forever!  I guess lots of crying, depression, reading, and watching netflix makes the time fly!  Libby didn't have her surgery today because we were short staffed but she will have it next Monday.  Tomorrow I have my fitness assessment at 7pm.  The lady said to wear my nikes, yoga pants, tshirt, and bring my water bottle because I would be sweating up a storm.  I'm working with someone names Patrick, I'm stuck between wondering if he'll be cute and thinking Oh God he's going to be like wow this girls fat and she can't work out for shit....so wish me luck.  Before that I have dinner plans with my mom...didn't get to see her last week because she was sick.  I haven't heard from Paul (my father) for months now...kinda sad that he doesn't want to know how his daughter is doing.  Especially because I haven't been doing that well, you'd think he'd want to know at least a little about my life, but his quiet absence definitely shows that he could give two shits about me.  I want to accept this however it is still hard for me.  I just can't imagine being a parent and not talking to my children, getting to know them better, and checking up on them and making sure they are okay.  My mom and I have come a long way in the last year....she's trying really hard and I love it!  Things haven't been this good with her in forever it seems.  I'm glad she didn't give up on me, and I'm also glad that I followed Papa's advice and kept trying with her.  I love you Mom!  Wednesday I am having dinner with Lisa my old boss and I am super excited!  I haven't gotten to have dinner with her in forever! 

Long Week

I worked all of New Year's Day.  Monday I worked until 1 and had brough Libby Lue to work with me t get her blood drawn for her upcoming mass removal and dental.  I have been doing a lot better with my moods.  Monday afternoon I was petting Ollie in the front window and Chad (yes, my ex) pulled up in the driveway because he had been looking for cars with my sister Malissa.  I'm ok with him helping out my stepbrother Josh by fixing his car, by helping Donna out by fixing her car, and with helping Malissa find a new car.  However, I am not ok with his lil girl toy being in the car when he drops my sister off!  So I say to Malissa when she comes in, oh so you feel comfortable hanging out with them together? And she says something like what am I going to do, tell him no? Ummmm YES!  She's MY sister, not his!  She should be loyal to me!  Also, if he really does care about me and me being happy etc, than he would have the courtesy to A. not have her in the car or hanging out with him and MY sister or B. meeting and picking up Malissa someplace else other than my house....so needless to say I had a meltdown.  Just adds more proof that everyone in my life tends to choose other people or things before me.  Tuesday I had the day off, I slept in, ran some errands, and then went to the doctor.  The doctor prescribed me another medication to help me sleep.  I went to Walgreens to pick it up and it took forever!  They said they had to wait for the insurance company to give them a price for the medication.  Wednesday I started work at 11, had an ok day.  Thursday was an ok day as well.  Which leads me to today.  Today I worked all day, groomed a few dogs, and I also heard from my old boss Lisa, she made a spur of the moment trip to Wisconsin (she moved to FL in July) and asked to have dinner with me this week.  We planned for Wednesday, for sushi! Yummy!  I am sooooo excited to see her, it's been too long!  I think it's just what I need!  Tonight I am just hanging out at home, watching Grey's Anatomy!