So I woke up a little after 10am today, needed extra sleep from not getting enough sleep the night before. I cleaned up the living room, vacuumed, did the dishes, cleaned the cat boxes, and cleaned my room. I sorted all my laundry and grabbed my big down blanket, and down mattress pad and washed them too! It really sucked having to bring everything up the stairs into the car, then into the laundry mat, then all the way down the stairs at home...then make my bed and put away laundry. I've had some lower back pain the last few weeks but I just chalked it up to sleeping weird or something like that and that it would go away in a couple weeks. Well, it most definitely has not gone away! It hurts worse than ever! It's like a band around my lower back that just hurts. Today it is at its worst! On the right side it has more pain and it shoots down into my butt and down my leg. I emailed my doctor to see what I should do about this.
I have a lot on my mind today, but not like emotionally crying etc. I'm thinking about my sister dating a new boy, and if it's the best choice for her and what the whole deal is with that whole situation. She's been very quiet about all of it. I guess I'm just an over protective sister.
Another thing is my whole texting thing with Chad on Friday night, early Saturday morning. My sister said that he texted her too but she was sleeping. He asked me why all of a sudden I text him? jw.....It's been running through my mind why he asked that question. Does he think about me? Does he want to talk to me but won't because he thinks it kills me every time I do??? I don't know! I just get so irritated with myself that he's ALWAYS on my mind! No matter how hard I try, he's still just there! Part of me likes that though. I just don't know anymore!
Today Donna give me an envelope from Gloria....she's the one who was on the cruise with us. She got me a really nice birthday card and a gift card to Starbucks...she really didn't have to do that but I thank her anyway!
I just sent an email to my doctor to see what I should do about my back. I got my nails done yesterday and they look so good today!
I love this song below..
Love, Love, Love this song!
Krysta,
ReplyDeleteI’ve been ready your post regularly now, especially since I’m blogging again (showing off my card and scrapbooking hobby-not much writing-not my strong trait). I’ve wanted to comment for a while but have hesitated because I don’t want to get too personal. Anyway, I think you are being too hard on yourself about what you feel like you haven’t accomplished in your 24 years. You are totally setting yourself up for disappointment in the future. Be proud of what you have done – you are going to school to better yourself, you work, take care of yourself and it sounds to me like you are important in many people’s lives.
I’m 44 years old and my life is nowhere like what I thought it would be when I was 24-somethings are better, some I wish were different. Things change and for me change is really difficult but I’m learning to go along with it. Just take it one day at a time and be happy for who you are and what you have done and keep doing your best and everything will work out just fine. And, you will find love again whether it is with Chad or someone else.
Take care.
p.s. Check out my blog – akellyscrafts.blogspot.com. I know you and your step-mom like to scrapbook!