Life's too short

Today was a long day at work....the holidays are always extremely busy for us at the animal hospital, so today wasn't an exception.  The day feels like a blur because of walking so many dogs.  By the end of the night I looked at all the collars hanging on the cages and thought to myself, Holy crap we just walked all those dogs and I don't really remember doing most of it.  My coworkers Brandy and Abbie though were rock stars today!  I am so glad and proud to have you two on my boarding team....you do such a great job during the holidays, well anytime for that matter.  I know some days are busy, hard, and stressful but you all do such a wonderful job keeping it all together!  I have a headache again today and it doesn't seem to be going away :(  Momma Donna got home and was looking through some pictures of Megan for her boards for her celebration of life party.  Looking through all the pictures with her just makes me extremely sad.  It's just not fair!  The pictures that drew me in the most, were pictures of Megan and her mom Suzi.  They way they smile at each other, the way you can like feel their energy, and the way you can see the love for each other in them just hit really close to home and my heart.  It's not fair for Suzi to have lost her oldest daughter, parents aren't supposed to outlive their children!  It's not fair for Megan that she never got to get married, have kids, and share all of that with her mom.  They are both losing out on some major things.  Below are some pictures that show you exactly what I mean about them.

This proves a point, that life's too short...you never know which day will be your last.  So don't take this life that you have for granted.  Be thankful for what you have, and strive for what you want.  Regrets and mistakes are memories made, so take chances, and always go for what you believe in.

On another topic, I feel like I've been telling you all about how hard all this is in my life with all things Chad, but I feel like I should share more with you all.  For awhile now I've been feeling lost, confused, unsure of my life, unsure of my path, not motivated, not determined, and not ambitious.  I think it all started at the beginning of this year.  It started with school and not wanting to wake up for class.  If it was up to me I'd sleep or lounge around all day.  So I decided (after not passing a class) to take a semester off from school to figure out what I wanted, and to ease my mind.  Shortly after this was decided, my supervisor Lisa told us that she was moving to FL.  So in July I took over her position.  By doing this it relieved some of my money worries.  From there it slowly kept going downhill.  I think that for a period of time I shut myself off...that I was numb and didn't let feeling in.  When it got too tiring to do that it all came out and may be worse now that I did that.  I don't like feeling like this.  I don't want to feel like my life is such a routine....sleep, wake up, go to work, come home, eat dinner, get into my pj's, watch some tv, read a little, go to bed, wake up, go to work, come home....are you getting the pattern?  I don't like the feeling of wanting to sleep all the time or not wanting to do anything.  I just want to feel normal and happy again.  Thank you to my friends and family who are standing by me through this difficult time in my life.  Thank you for not getting annoyed with me and not giving up on me, when I have almost given up on myself.  Tomorrow I am baking cookies all day with my aunt....look for a yummy post tomorrow!