Pride-a high or inordinate opinion of one's own dignity, importance, merit, or superiority, whether as cherished in the mind or as displayed in conduct.
Envy- a feeling of discontent or covetousness with regard to another's advantages, success, or possessions.
Anger- a strong feeling of displeasure and belligerence aroused by a wrong.
Sloth- habitual disinclination to exertion; indolence; laziness.
Greed- excessive or rapacious desire, especially for wealth or possessions.
Gluttony- excessive eating and drinking.
Lust- a passionate or overmastering desire or craving for something.
Jealousy- resentment against a rival, a person enjoying success or advantage etc., or against another's success or advantage itself.
Seems like lately I've been encountering all of these, some more than others but all of them none the less. I know that it's human nature to encounter some of these feelings at some point in your life. I know I am only 23 years old, not much time to gain life skills and wisdom as my elders have had, but I like to think that I have a old soul and have learned a lot through my short 23 years. I've learned that life is short, not to take things for granted, you can't make someone love you, some people just don't care even if I do, trust is hard to build, it's not about what you have but whom you have in your life, we are responsible for who we become, you are responsible for you, bad things happen to good people, some things are privelages, and not every relationhip you have in your life is the same.
The relationship I have with Donna, is different then the one I have with my mom, aunt mary, aunt anna, my sisters, or anyone else or vice versa. A person shouldn't have to defend their relationships with others to other people. It's just not right, nor is it fair. Relationships are two sided, a person can't do it on their own. You have to give a little to take.
I was having a very good day today, work went well! I ran some errands with Jordan today...had to get kitty food at PetSmart, get some cuddleduds at Kohls, and go to Half Price Books to sell some books back, then to Starbucks to get a coffee for Donna, then had drinks and shrimp with my mom. My mom and I had a little disagreement early Sunday morning, but we have talked it out. We may not see eye to eye on a few things but we've agreed to disagree, without any name calling and hurtful things being said. When Jordan and I got home, I started my laundry, changed my sheets on my bed, sorted through my shoes (getting rid of some of them), did the dishes, cleaned the kitchen and living room, and cleaned the catboxes. I was feeling pretty good and productive. As the night went on, I started feeling a little anxious, down, angry, bitter, upset, confused, and disappointed. Donna has been a part of my life for quite some time now, it didn't just happen yesterday...and over the years we developed a bond, and it kept growing. I'm sick of having to defend it....don't you all have someone that is your best friend? Don't most people have a best friend? The answer to those is probably yes! Well in my case my best friend is in her 40's and can also be like a mom. In no way shape or form is she taking the place of my mother. And mom, when you're reading this (which I know you probably will be) this blog and all this isn't directed towards you...because we've talked about all this tonight and we're good, we're cool! It's for everyone else out there that has a problem. Since I've been going through all this stuff...I did make one promise to myself (if I was going to make it through) was to stay/be true to myself. No lying to myself or doing something I don't necessarily want to do. I love you all, just all in different ways...because you know there are different kinds of love. I'm done preaching/venting now. Off to watch my DVR'd Hart of Dixie <3
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