Hey everyone! I'm back! I haven't wrote anything in a LONG time! I guess I haven't felt like writing all that much lately. I've been busy though since I've written last. I joined the gym (Gold's Gym in Hales Corners), joined a book club with my bff Anna, working, and finalizing all my cruise stuff. Holy frickin crap it is 20 days until I leave for my cruise! I am so counting down and looking forward to it. I can't wait to get the hell out of here for awhile. It will be nice to relax and clear my head. I also get to spend March 2nd-12th with Momma Donna, which is awesome! I haven't been on a vacation like this in almost 4 years. I've never been on a cruise, so I'm a virgin ;) I just can't wait for no work and all play! I've been going to the gym alot, haven't lost too much weight yet, but I am building muscle. I took this boot camp class with my bff Anna last Saturday and it was soooo hard, and I made it through it. However, the next day I couldn't walk, and the next day after that I could barely walk as well. The kicker, my instructor was pregnant! So spending time at the gym has been good for the soul and for the body. I feel good going there and working out. My bff Anna and my sissy Malissa are very good motivators and they come and work out with me! They also have tanning so I've been doing that a little so that I'm not pasty white on my cruise and getting burnt and being in pain my whole vacation. So that's pretty much what I've been up to besides work. Last night I went to a pure romance party at my bff Anna's house. Never been to one...it was VERY interesting. Your left arm/hand is your licker and your right arm/hand is your sniffer. So anything you can taste went on the left and things you could smell went on your right. I didn't know that all of the stuff there even existed. We had a little too much wine lol I was licking Anna's arm to see what her flavor was and she was licking mine. It was really funny! I really don't know what I'd do without that girl.....she is wonderful! She's all I could ask for in a best friend! She's been so supportive with me lately and my crazy life and mood swings..I can't thank her enough and I hope she knows how much I love her! I left the party last night and on the way home I felt kind of sad because everyone at the party was talking about using the products and what not with their significant others, I felt left out :( Then I came home and went to bed. I woke up this morning feeling so weird. I've been on different medications the last 2 months and I'm finally sleeping pretty good. I get into a deep deep sleep and I dream more than I've ever dreamed before. They are all so vivid and seem so real. However, every night....I dream of him, yes him. I'm sure you all know who him is, if you've been keeping up with my blog. At times that sucks but other times its nice because that's the only time I get to see him and "be" with him. Sounds lame and stupid but true at the same time. This morning I woke up feeling off...not myself and I don't know why. I thought it was maybe because of my thoughts about the party last night, and that could be part of it, but I don't know there's just something else that I can't figure out....I can't pinpoint what's wrong or why I feel so melancholy today. I'm just off today, not on my game. I've been doing really well lately, been pretty happy and for the most part on the up swing. I wish I knew why today just felt weird and off. I don't know somethings just not right :( Today I went to see Breaking Dawn Part 1 at the budget theater with Jordan, her friend, and Donna. I just love those movies! Afterwards we went grocery shopping, came home and put stuff away. Donna and I then went to Red Robin for dinner, then off to Barnes and Noble to get coffee and look at books. So like I've said I was feeling kind of weird and melancholy today, I was going through some status shuffle statuses and I couldn't decide on one so here are a few that I like for today:
1. Doing the right thing for yourself and doing the right thing for others are usually two different things. Both cannot be accomplished at once.
2. Wishes there was a way to go back and right all the wrongs. But there isn't
3. sometimes the hardest thing & the right thing are the same.
4. What's meant to be will always find a way, and what doesn't find a way was never meant to be.
5. I found myself thinking about you today, and I smiled(: I began to miss you, and I cried:'(
6. Sometimes silence is the loudest noise! People are asking me how I manage to deal with things so easily, the answer is; I don't I just get better at hiding it..
7. When you love someone, no matter how much they hurt you, no matter how many promises they break, no matter how many times they fail, you will always love them
Too hard to decide which one of those I am feeling at the moment...I think I'm a jumble of all of them. Basically, I'm a hot mess as they say! But I'll be OK ;) 20 days til my cruise, I'm definitely going to be OK.
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