Connections

Today I feel: content, sick, guilty, tired, hopeful, excited, and anxious.  I still have a cold, and I would like this scratchy throat to go away any minute now!  I'm feeling guilty because I've neglected the gym most of the week because I haven't been feeling well, however I didn't neglect those red velvet cookies someone brought into work.  I am excited for my cruise.  I'm tired because I worked out at the gym for 2 hours and then tanned.  I am hopeful today because what's meant to be, will be.  I am anxious for my cruise, I am anxious about losing weight, and I'm anxious because since Saturday Chad's been weighing heavy on my mind.  Don't get be wrong I think about him everyday however, it's just this extra strong feeling.  Him and I always had this weird connection where we just knew when either of us "needed" each other.  Or we'd be in the car, and in my head I'd think oh I wish he'd put this song on, and he'd do it when I didn't even say it out loud.  A few months ago when I was at a pretty low point in my life and I hadn't talked to Chad in forever...he texted me out of the blue asking if I was OK. I wasn't OK....but with that stupid connection (I say stupid because it sucks having it when we aren't together) he knew something was up.  So I don't know if it's just my crazy head or if somethings off with him because I don't know, I just feel it. 
Another weird thing happened today as well.  My mom called and left me this voicemail around lunch time telling me that her husband took her out to this habachi place where she lives in west bend.  Then on her way to work (its a long drive) she was praying that she'd just like her daughter Krysta to have one happy day, one day that she feels happy.  Then she got into work and read my blog stating that I felt happy that day.....weird right? So coincidence? or was her prayer answered? After reading Heaven is for Real I have more faith in that higher power and that there really is a god.  I just wish some of my prayers would be answered.  Since mine are seeming to be ignored, maybe my mom should pray everyday for me lol!
Well, that's all for tonight!