Response and Updates

When someone comments on a blog post of mine, especially one that is long and they have put thought and detail in it, I like to make a comment back to them.  Lori, Donna's sister commented on my last post....I think she is a wonderful person and I hope she doesn't mind that I call her aunt Lori.  She always has insight to many things and I wish she lived in Wisconsin because I miss her!  Anyways....I am very happy that I got all of that off my chest as well.  You are very right in saying, now where to move on from there.  This has been hard for me lately because I don't know...I'm so lost, I don't know what direction to go in, or what path to take.  Working through all of this on my blog is what I am trying to do.  I don't know if it's helping or not.  You are very right that I got through my childhood and having Papa and Donna in my life was the best gift that God gave me.  Lori, I have to tell you, up until recently I was having doubts in God, and that he even existed.  I read, "Heaven is for Real" and "The Shack" and that gave me some true insight and I don't have as many doubts.  You are VERY right when you say I've thrown in the towel and I'm tired.  I'm so very tired of life, I wish I could just fall asleep for a few years.  I am so tired of the day to day life, and all the stress.  Thank you for telling me that you are proud of me, it means a lot especially from coming from someone who is technically not my family.  I truly appreciate you noticing.  Maybe that's what I need more of....I feel like people take me for granted a lot, and I don't feel special.  You didn't say anything out of line....it was a very nice comment and reading it again now, brings me to tears...happy tears not sad ones.  I love you too, auntie Lori.  Thank you again for your comments, I truly appreciate any feedback, good and bad, I need to hear it all. 
On another note, I went to the chiropractor again yesterday and she went through my x-rays with me and explained why my back is in so much pain and also my history of headaches.  I absolutely love the chiropractor....it's funny she was the first on the list and I told myself that I'd go with the person who could get me in soonest.  My headaches have been under control as of lately..who knew I could live a almost headache free life? Getting insurance through work was the best thing I ever did.  So Monday I saw my psychiatrist, Tuesday the chiropractor, today dropped off something for my general doctor, and tomorrow I go to the chiropractor again.  My back is still in pain just not as bad.  Jordan made me feel really good yesterday...she asked me when we were going to have a night to watch movies down in my room and cuddle in bed.  That probably made my day!  I just love that little girl so much....she is so very intuitive for her age.